Thursday, May 18, 2006
Yes. I am tryin to at least submit something everyday. today is basically alrite. although i do feel some wierd feeling inside me when i face any morrisonians today, i try to forget abt it. however, i am realli serious in givin the school nats a miss. but the track suit looks real good man.and cheap too! (18 bucks for whole set+ a tshirt!) but come to think bout it. why shud i get it when i not going nats? hai. i feel damn disappointed sia. received the mail on the results for last years SEA age. checked the records for my events. 50m Br 31.07--, 100m Br 1.06.87--, 200m Br 2.26.++!) wtf man.seems like i cant onli get the 50m record liao. all the best no matter wad.
ah. feeling a bit lost. my strokes haven been the best of best. sch carn 50m br results is ... 32.2? i can do that several times in training/.. have i lost my sprinting force? this is indeed worrying man. others think i am slacking. but i am not. its not tiring but.. i just cant go fast?.. help me... something..b4 its too late..
2 Garbage of the day for u all:
1. It's not the destination, but the journey that matters. (to all disappointed/ lost souls)
2. It's the souls/ spirit u put inside and not the outsome that matters. (mr.mac)
wow.still got time..
ah wtf. spend it all lah.. Sincerely.. i cant help.. seriously.. i am helpless. i am struggling.. struggling to live in this world.. where everyone Strives..Aims.. Dreams.. of Perfection. can i ask if Perfection is realli that impt? why? i cant find any reason why there is these kind of pple on SG/Earth:
1. MUG-till-death-is at-ur-throat
2.TRAIN-till-heart-is-on-ur-tongue
3. PUTTING-on-a-bloody-mask
elaboration( i am realli into this topic.sry)
1.mugging.
i am not realli against mugging. yeas. we have to. its essential to survive in RI* (*a highly competitive and harsh environment) but cant u guy be a little more humane? why let this suck away the very life left u in? have some sense. studies is realli impt. tho i am not realli good in studies, as a matter of fact, i suck, i have to say that studies realli ROB us of our childhood, our life, this willl impact us on how we will lead our lives next time. i suggest u noe when to mug and when to relax.
2. training
i am not exactly the hard-core trainer type. i onli train near competitions (abt 2 wks b4). although i am encouraged to go more, i seriously think i shud. i am going onli bout 3x a week on average? ya. those hardcore trainers. too many to name all. we are spreading ourselves too thin. breakdown is so close. we are living on the edge. training more not = to faster. strategic training must be there. if u keep training and u dun improve, dun be stupid. ya stupid, go think of wad went wrong stupid..i go training, i dare say i give in my 200% ( 2wks b4 comp) and 99% ( normal) as i am usually shag and tired out by the mental stress and my mind always occupied by work, such that i cant concentrate in training. if spreading urself too thin is not effective, it becomes a vicous cycle, u fail in all aspects. but try relaxing. cut down the no. of trngs. u may have better work efficiency! to me, i feel that 6 trng sessions/wk is more than enuff. 10trng/wk may even lose out in this case. 6 trng x 99% effort > 10 trng x 30-40% effort ( u so drained every day!!) unless u all super hardcore lah!
3. mask-wearer
why control urself just become u want to impress others? or u want others to have a false impression of u? its your life i think.. its so miserable forcing urself to act so unlike you. act how u wuld act alone in a room. why let others affect you? why do things for others to see and send urself to misery? this is plain stupid. anyway, masks change easily btw. false front.wtf.
eg. act humble when u not,
act cool when u not,
act generous when u not,
act stupid when u not,
act as though YOU are living the way u want when u are not,
and SIMPLY FINDING AN EXCUSE for urself that i am not telling the truth.
ok. late liao. u decide if i am telling truth. all the above are purely my opinions so dun blame me 4 any shit.
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One day you'll be the one crying..# ;
